Power

Attraction so strong, I shudder and shake,
My next move will take much courage to make.
Throw caution to the wind, take a deep breath and go,
Then I receive a nonchalant, casual “no.”
When my heart crushes, I force a slight grin,
Rejection and pain begin to set in.
I pretend it was nothing, a casual request,
I hide the pain from the world that I feel in my chest.
Days go by, as my heart, tries to mend.
Until I get news of her new boyfriend.
Upset by the though, “she wanted him, not me,”
Then, when I met him, it was pure jealousy.
This guy was a loser, petty drug dealer,
And that was the worst part, how could HE steal her!
Driven by jealousy, uncontrollable hate,
I would lash out at her, I would show her my state.
I used all my anger, gave her my pain,
Made her feel useless, expressed my disdain.
But seeing her hurt, the pain doubled inside,
Disgusted in myself, I broke down and cried.